Bak in my favourite weight range!!
Well I’m back…. Not sure if its good or not! Better then nothing tho…
Recovery….so freaking hard!
FAT!!!
26 days binge and purge free….I’m now petrified to eat :(
20 days binge purge free I WILL NOT BINGE
Argh so angry according toy gp I have a stomach lining infection and he won’t test my gallbladder….. FFs
Sooo not having to much fun health wise at the moment! Fell down the stairs and injured my wrist, need a massive filling in my tooth, today ended up at hours doctor who thinks I have gallstones and to top it off I court my foot and my little toe is now black….
I must of either pissed karma off or I’m falling apart!
So update in my life not that anyone cares…. Think I’ve broken my hand got to go back to hospital in two weeks for another scan as they couldn’t see the bone in the x ray they said it was because it was all swollen I think it’s because I’m to fat!!! I almost died when they said they couldn’t see it like fuck I’m to fat to X-ray!
Can’t cycle to work!!!! Sooooo annoyed! Alan keeps commenting on what I’m eating when I’m eating it he’s watching me an I get why but i wish he would just come out and say it instead of dropping hints!
YES I know I havnt eaten breakfast or lunch YES I know vegetables for dinner are bad! YES I know none of my cloths fit and I’m a disgusting monster!
I’m a crappy mum crappy wife I’m just crappy!!!
I’ve been thinking about food more and more! I havnt binged or purged in 12 days (13 tomorrow) and the more I fight not to binge the more I restrict the more I fight to eat less!
It’s just so fucking hard!!!
I want to be back to where I was!!
Why can’t I have that why did everyone say I had to gain weight ??
I’m starting to think they did it on purpose I wasn’t that skinny they where just jealous! Argh fuck off brain and die !!!
Sat here pissed and freaking out :(
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